everytime i try to fly i fall

salam a'laik.

its nice to have people surrounding you who shows empathy to others.just now when we were about to break fast,workees,or more like waiters in casino park restaurant gave us lots of food and juices so as to make our mood so much better.few muslims work there.and to see them joined us broke fast together,the feeling was mutual.we liked to see them,they liked to see us too.well,in this case,my definition of 'like' is it is awesome to see muslim buke puase same2 without knowing each other.yes we didn't have the time to break the ice.still,as muslims,we are brothers and sisters.we are minority here,not like in malaysia where muslims are the majority of the populations and you can see people where scarfs almost everywhere.hey talked about scarf,it is so nice to see almost all the scarf shops sell the regular normal bidang 45-60 scarfs.kalau dulu susah kot,asla nak beli tudung je,ade yang terus sarung tu.they simply said 'skang da xde da fashion tudung bawal adik'.i was like what? well,wearing tudung is not just a trend my dear.
so back to the story,we were breaking fast together and we did have the opportunity to have something they usually have for break fast.something similar to fried banana and something i thought it were onions clumped together and made sticky with the help of flour and were fried,which i would like to call,fried onions.crunchier and more deli.above all,i would probably like to suggest those who live in mysore to have a break fast there.

hurm.being homesick is not a habit.a total no.but,being far away from your beloved family,no matter what country you are in,homesick is kinda habit right?or maybe more like a necessity right?because at some point,i do think that being homesick makes you feel stronger than before.you accept that you are miles away from the people you love,you want them to be near to you eagerly,then you have to be strong about it and never to break down easy.so yeah.to fight the feeling is hard,but if you succeed,you are going to anyway,it is empowering.

it was sad to wake up all of a sudden,opened your room door,and felt so disappointed in yourself for falling asleep and not be with your parents at all time,and drastically you saw an unfamiliar-not-home view.then you realized that you were not actually home.you were in india,and the feeling you got,WAS JUST A DREAM.then you lied back to your bed and cried silently,feeling heart broken simply because you were not home.yes thats what happened to me days ago.SAD.enough said.hurm


before i end this post,i would like to say,have a good day all.berpuase la ye.haha.jangan ttbe time ni plak nak gastric la ape la.haha.macam drama plak kan?wee wee wee.

taa~

phewitt

salam and hello there.
since i have a new smartphone and incredibly excellent wifi here as compared to my incredibly-slow broadband connection,i am obsessed with downloading apps and playing games.every now and then i play games in my new phone.it's devastating.
i know it's bad.that is not the point of having a smartphone.
maybe i was shocked of the technology of smartphone,i guess.lame.yes.thats me.tell me bout it.
okay.enough about phone.my hands are sleeping due to high energy spent to slides my fingers over the screen to chop sushi.i guess you are confused.my point being is that i played that highly addictive sushi chops game.not recommended at all.cause it is highly addictive.that's why.

since i am new to all these kind of stuffs,i was amazed by how fast pictures can be shared via whatsapp.i used to share pics via facebook all the time,during my era of 3310 and the gang.but now that i have a new phone,i was shocked by the fastness of the app to share photos,videos and all that.okay.i repeated the same point twice,so as to get my point cleared.hoyeah.

well,we bunked lots of classes.we didn't skip away free though.piles of homeworks were given.yeah.we need to get our muscle bulks to be stronger.high energy needed.

new stuffs,new shirts,new apps,new everything.those are not important.what is important is that i need a new spirit.yes.new spirit.

okay.need to be off now.

salam

salam

self-esteem issue. p.s:i am beautiful.we all are.

salam and good morning everyone.
as i stalked few persons on facebook,i tend to realize one thing.some have high self-esteem while others have that issue i wrote as my title.yes.self-esteem.broad subject.way to long to be discussed.and too much opinions to be considered.so lets just stick to my perspectives shall we?

i am eager to write about this thing when i stalked their albums.some like their eyes to be small.some gloat about how big their eyes are.some are in okay term.some think they are so-so.and some,think they are just not good enough.who to blame?i suggest,ourselves.

people are good at different ways.at their own ways.we feel unsafe,insecure,because we judge.yes.we judge.then comes the jealousy issue.we compare.as in 'oh that girl's face is so damn perfect.mine is terrible' or just simply think 'why does this person has a flawless everything?'. those are the results of comparing..as easy as it sounds,the question of 'why need to compare' does not seem to be the most acceptable question to be asked.because at some point i agree,comparisons are good as it could challenge ourselves to be better and to strive for perfections.indeed.but as for the comparisons who is more beautiful,who has the bigger or smaller eyes,don't click at all to an okay term.

everyone is beautiful.like selena gomez said 'who says you are not beautiful'?you knew that song don't you?
you should accept yourselves.you have to be sure that beauty is subjective.two persons discussing about a subject's beauty don't have to always have the same result.one may think the subject is beautiful and the other may think otherwise.as easy as that.it's subjective.you can think of however you want,no one will object.its your points anyways.so yeah.

actually,i intended to write this because i tend to compare.and to judge.then comes the jealousy issue,then the unsafe issue,etc. etc. well you know how its going to work out.none the less,i need to make myself clear that it is okay to have an issue with myself.i mean it is okay to think me myself are not flawless.that makes me,me.people around me who can't stand with my flaws make me understand how to get real friends.people who appreciate me for who i am make me realize there are people whom you can rely on,whom you can trust.i don't need to compare how big my eyes are to others,how thin my lips are,how much pimples i have,how fat i am as compared to those skinnies-who-think-they-are-too-fat-but-they-totally-ain't because i am beautiful in my own ways.yes i have flaws.i have terrible attitudes.i could change that.all of us can.its a matter of can't or won't.the former one just doesn't fit well and there goes the latter one which seems selfish.
yes.from now on,i need to change my way of seeing myself.i need to raise my self-esteem.i need to agree to those who say i am beautiful in my own way.there's this guy who i like to complain a lot about who i am,how not beautiful i think i am to this person,then this person just laughed hard and simply said 'you are very beautiful for me.no need to think of others.appreciate yourself coz i appreciate you.and i think you are my queen'.sweet,definitely!.but that's not the point.the point is,appreciate yourself.when you appreciate,you accept.and when you accept,everything will fall on line.and it will all gonna be great.you will feel great.and of course,you will feel beautiful.we are Allah creations.we are unique.yes,we are all beautiful. :)

don't forget to say 'alhamdulillah.thank you Allah for everything' each time okay friends?

till i ramble again.haha

salam :))

ps : i feel like a princess everytime i wear this scarf.bite me.suka hati lah.haha

we welcome you!

salam everyone.
we are welcoming ramadhan al-mubarak right people?
it's the month full of greatness.the month which most of us look up for.
we are going to fast this whole month,and yeah,you knew the few exceptions.none the less,we know we should fast physically and mentally as well.

i will be in malaysia for 3 more days left. its sad.hurm.
okay.i don't want to spoil my very good mood.

so chow.

coughing.its bad.

salam everyone.
i have running nose.and this terrible cough. Oh Allah.grant me health and strength.ameen.
my head is going to explode,literally.seriously.this cough is seriously B.A.D.
there is way too much raised in pressure in my head right now.
too much of straining.like i said,it is BAD.
i am strong in case you are thinking of me complaining.
i tried so hard to cover my pain.did try not to cough either coz my cough is too loud which awaken my parents.they worried too much.
it is even harder since i have like 5 days to be back in india.sobs.
I HAVE TO BE STRONG.AND HEALTHY OF COURSE.

may your prayers be with me too. :)

alhamdulillah

salam everyone!!
yippieeee!i am so grateful,delighted and yes,happier than you can imagine!
thank you everyone for making my mouth-whisper-wish came true! wink wink :))

nothing much to talk about today.
oh one thing i am in absolute non-understanding thought is,why the heck they wanted to produce movies with all the terrorism,girls who looked like they have no values,men smoking partying girl-ing.i mean come on!what are you trying to portray here huh?what other people from the other side of country say when they see all these stupid movies?i dont understand AT ALL.kalau tunjuk orang pukul2 la,ganas2 la,ape motif nye?budak2 mungkin tengok trailer yg korang wat tu.then what next?should they take you as their role model?should they copy your stupid actions?should they be just like you?
i won't be rooting for these movies when it comes to the best movies of the year.jangan la wat cite ganas2 sangat.budak2 skang die asek tengok tv,dorang jauh lagi maju dr aku time kecik2 dulu.heh

okay.that's for today.

what you want your kids to be in the future?
*food for thought*

melaka.wihuu

salam everyone.
weuhh. (its sound of me sighing okay)
we finally got back from melaka.its tiring for sure,but the experiences were worth it.i mean.when you have a kampung there,sometimes what you will be knowing of that place are stuffs around your kampung only.like if people ask you where are the best places to go visit when you are in melaka,you will give this clueless face because you are clueless anyway.yes it occurred to me.my kampung is in melaka,and i don't even know best places there.coz when we went to melaka,its simply for visiting kampung and relatives there.as easy as that.oh yes.i can assure you we've been to places there,but not that i remembered because i have this lack of memory when it comes to jalan2.haha.susah gile kot nak ingat jalan ni.aiyo.dad always asked ;ingt lagi x kite penah pegi ni ni ni ni.....' .*blank face* facepalm.

anyhow,i have regained the capability to remember,a bit.out of 5,2 will do justice.

630 now and i haven't kemas anything yet.i am sure my mom will scold me later.that's okay coz i'll be missing these moments when i am back again to that horrifying place.

salam and good night all!

itsy bitsy spider

salam everyone!
how was your day?
mine was superb/oh wait.my day hasn't really over yet.so maybe i'll be commenting on my day later.
so yeah.i washed danial super busuk poop today.haha.yeah,like i said,get my hand dirty babe!

just now,the high com officer called me and asked for my jpa offer letter because jpa didn't send the list of names of students along with the permission letter for the renewal of our visas.the information must have slipped away somehow.heck.how come they wrote like this 'along with this letter,we hereby attached the list of names of the students studying in JSS bla bla' but they didn't attach anything at all!wat malu je.huih.leklok la wat keje.there's a thing if you are working without any sincerity.hurm.okay i know i have no right to comment on how people work coz i am no good myself either.but this is too obvious.you said you wanted to attach the names along with the letter,but WHERE THE HECK IS IT?it's not as if the list is just a piece of junk.it's too useful as it will determine whether we can get our visas or not!huh.one thing that had already cause burden to us was that we have to renew our visas every year and each year cost rm300!huh.that's a lot of money there..now that we had received our noc letter and we were delighted to hope for straight 4years of visas,the jpa problem just came in the way.huh.i was shocked and a bit scared because i didn't bring my documents back home for safety purpose.so yeah.after all the conflicts,i managed to solve this problem though.alhamdulillah.Allah eased my way.thank you Allah. :))

budak comel pintar ni tgh tido dalam buaian.sgt la cekap tiru ape org wat.baru setahun lebey tp prgi cm bdk suploh thun.hahahaha.syg manje manje ni~



salam.

'get my hands dirty'

and by that means,i am going to get my hands really d.i.r.t.y.

oh forgot.salam -_-''

that dirty refers to cuci verak danial.hahaha
ibu cakap now his poops really are stinky.much more stinky than the ones when he was less than a year.haha.of course they are.oh come on!don't i have any other subjects,other that POOPS?

well,i feel great to be home!i feel alive!
home sweet home.

baru due hari beb.da nek 2 kilo.oh my oh my!


salam :))