You know that feeling that make your whole day miserable is restraining you from whatever you should do and it sucks. One, I don't know myself anymore. I don't think I understand myself any longer. I think that's the biggest crime I'm doing right now, growing another person in the same body, or whatever you want to call it. I don't think my decision is right. I am all confused and miserable! Just tell me how. How am I supposed to forgive someone who just smoked when I hate smoking! I hate the active and having to be the passive.  I hate cigarettes and whatever companies making them. I hate smokers and the smell of smoke. I hate to see people smoke and I definitely hate if the people I actually care about smoke! Omg I feel like banging my head on the wall, hard. You say you are so mad that you have to smoke because I was throwing tantrum. That's your excuse? That?! Excuse me while I say this, even if nobody cares about you that doesn't me you have to charcoal-ed your lungs and blackens you gums and making your pe*** infertile!! Argh I'm hating myself right now for being so whiny and couldn't set my mind straight.!!!!! 

Ah the horror

It's horribly difficult to have like only Rs 1000+ in your account with all these needs you carry in your chest. I mean, you can't possibly deny everything you want because boy you can be so persuasive you'd wriggle around the counter if you don't get what you want, but you still can't have what you want because in order for you to survive this month, you need to eat, which you can't do if you have no money left in your account. Ah, the horror!!!!

My birthday is on 9th August!

I don't do branded stuff (sue me for my white lie) but when people give it to me, I take it with open hands. 

Thank you for my prebirthday gift! If I say I don't like it, it means you can smack me hard because how can I not love this?!

Anyhow, final year is terrible. I can impossibly imagine how am I gonna survive this year. It's impossible! Well, I might go and polish my self confidence now. Taa.

Losing sleep.

I have to admit, having terrible headache which doesn't subside even after taking rest (more like having deep sleep, excuse me) does suck. Well, suck it up.

Today is the second day of Eid here in India. I miss my Gomel can't wait for October to come over coz I'm leaving for Malaysia! Yihaaa! 

The beautiful Yot. Mind my awkward ugly smile, will ya?