Rambling and so on.

I am really mad of myself right now. I spent the whole day today sleeping, not literally, but I slept more than any hours spent doing some productive works or being an effective student, hence I'd say I spent the whole day sleeping today. And if I am able to recollect well, I did waste this week by sleeping-which took more precious hours than I could count, outings, eating and other activities which I don't appreciate right now. Seriously, I know I am free enough to go randevour, but I shouldn't waste my time like that! To add more salt to the wound, I didn't even touch my book, or even clean my room! That's why I am mad. 

Last time, if I remember well enough, I wanted a room for myself. I wanted privacy. I wanted to sit quietly in my room, singing as loud as I could since they wouldn't really hear me singing. Other than that, I wanted things on my own too. Suffice to say, I was selfish back then. Well, I finally had what I'd wanted all those years. Except now that I had it, I feel as empty as unkempt pool I am dangling my legs into. Now that I've realised, nothing as ever as important to keep or to store, I feel like I should now change the way I view life, I should prioritize, I should manage myself to not be such a pain in the buttocks to my friends and people surrounding me. I never realize how much I miss having a roommate until I've lost my roommate, OK fine, she doesn't leave me farther, she just moved to the next room, but hey, she is my roommate no more. So you see, what you want isn't really the best for you. Because you have this thing we called nafsu, which overpower your thoughts and your consciences, making you want things you don't really need. I suggest, you prioritize. At the end of the day, nothing will you bring together with you when you die. 

Oh by the way, my memory card for my phone is damaged. I don't know what went wrong or should I pass the buck, but what I can muster is that I have no idea how to restore all my data. Yes. Call me a person-who-super-lacks-of-IT-knowledge, I just need my memory card to be a good boy back! 

Crush on Chester see

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=r8Vp980Xun4

This is by far my favourite cover to watch. Beautiful voice, plus beautiful face. (Not to mention, great biceps too) hehe

Wednesday

I was planning to write a post after I take my shower. But I think, I think, the heater isn't ready yet and it's cold right now, so post first, shower later. Hehe.

So for today, I cooked some weird mixing of eggs and cashew nuts with chillies. Since I didn't want to waste any of the cashews - I knew I won't be using it anytime soon so it might get infected with aspergillus before I get the chance to use it again- so I put the whole 100gm of it into my dish. So it was more of cashews than the eggs rather. Hence, my dish was over dominated by the cashew so it got kinda not tasty anymore. I wasn't that disappointed, truth be told. It wasn't that bad, OK. It was so-so. Furthermore, I had the experimenting done, so I have the experience. Do you? Hehe. 

I know I have been telling this for bazillion times, but I couldn't get myself enough of it. I miss my nephews!! I really miss them. I know I get a little obsessed, but hey, you have to get yourself nephews, or nieces, for that matter, for you to know that feeling I have now, both superficial and deep seated feeling of missing your nephews. I can't wait to bite those chubby-flabby-saggy cheeks of theirs!!! Hehe.

P.s : whenever I hear and watch Chester Sees singing 'the one that got away' on YouTube, I always feel like he is talking to me, ogling me , giving me that look of 'oh yes, you're the girl'. Ah, the sexy voice and that immaculate look, it makes me go all 'oh my goat cheese, he's so cute!!!'

Tuesday and wise words.

Tonight I cooked yellow chicken (my creativity to name my dish is out of reach right now. Yellow chicken sounds ew, but you know I used turmeric powder, do you?) with potato bites and lots of curry leaves. There was no hotness of chilly in my dish tonight so as to relax my gastric mucosa a little bit due to over erosion of yesterday's spices. No more spicy food for the night! Yet, mei eye cooked ladies fingers or okra with sambal belacan. You know the deal, when it is sambal belacan, it means pedas gile. Haha. But it was so delicious I couldn't resist. So there went my intention to say no to spicy food. Meh. Nevertheless, I enjoyed every piece of okras in mei yee's cooking. Asida made eggs with soy sauce and it was tasty too! Alhamdulillah, I am full up till now that I had already brushed my teeth because there was no question of whether or not I am going to munch something later this night. Yup, I am that full. Alhamdulillah.

Before I end my post, I'd like to say that if you feel mad at someone, or if you feel like there is something that you disagree on someone's plans or thoughts or any of the sort, I suggest you tell them directly and not to delay the telling. Because, I highly opine that maybe that person you're angry with don't actually know or notice that you're angry with them. So they act like they don't care, which you assume they are, since you didn't tell them in the first place. Don't hold your disagreement to yourself. Plus, if the thing that you're angry with could somewhat change that person to a better demeanour, than it's a win win, no? Por favor, holding a grudge is like holding a burnt charcoal. You hurt your own hands and of course, blacken them. So why are you holding it? I suggest you let go of it coz what you might not know is that maybe that burnt charcoal can create an intensity of heat which can cook a fish. What's bad in that? Good night, people.

Plan for this one month break.

So, hear me out, will ya? 

I'll be having a month break (not that actual break where you can sit happily at home without having to worry about your attendance and all, but the kinda free where you don't have your brain soaking wet with all the last minute study) before the next exam says hi. To me, that one month break is like, the most happiest gift my college could offer yet, other than holidays that is. I no longer need to cram my brain and ache my back sitting and taking naps on my chair. But hey, I'm not complaining. Deep down, I know I somehow appreciate my way of living because I can mould that experiences into one big lesson for me to survive in this world. I can grow up as a strong ironclad woman who has her aims and motives for living. Yes, I talk loud. I hope I act loud too.

Back to the initial intention of me writing this post. Since I have this one month stress-free, I am going to make a plan. A great plan, I'd say. I am going to cook at least 2days per week for this one month and I am going to make dessert at least once. Because you see, what I do best other than what I do best, is cooking. My cooking may not taste good, may not be impressive, may not be finger licking good, may not stimulate people's salivary glands to drool, but, at least I put every effort, every sweat I can in my cooking. I like to see people eat my dish. I enjoy having people enjoying my food. I love to see people smile eating my cooking. I am generous like that. Hehe. And to make my plan work, i am going to write down what I have been cooking for this November, and this plan is effective from today.

Today, I cooked chicken sambal with potatoes, which was extremely hot and spicy it made everyone flushed! Hehe. Sorry guys. I think my threshold for spice has increased way to high that I can't really sense the spiciness no longer.  My lovely housemates helped me too! They even prepared a dish, which complemented my chicken sambal by a whole lot! They made stir fried vegetables. It was yum! Oh, not to forget, I made musambi juice, which was sugarless, so you know how it taste, do you? Suffice to say, it wasn't good. Actually, that is an understatement. Haha. Other than my musambi juice, I think we have made a pretty awesome dinner for today. Alhamdulillah.

Flying thoughts

Alhamdulillah, exam's over. We get to rest for a month before the next paper comes. It's such a relief to get that one month. Trust me, I know better.

For now, i am going to get myself involved in an event called movie marathon. Have u heard of it? Hehe. And also, I want to polish my cooking or baking skills. Speaking of which, to make your cooking or baking skills more glistening, you need to experiment things yourself. Try and error, they say. Test your palate what combination suits best, which goes with which and so on. But in order for you to experiment, you need to have modals to buy the raw ingredients and everything. And boy, they are expensive!! Who says baking is cheap? 

Plans

Ever since I have this ipad mini, this website of mine where I pour my hearts and thoughts out, is no longer dusty and outdated, because it I keep updating it. I am not sure whether this is a bad thing or a good thing, but, what I know right now is that I should punch my face lightly because I shouldn't be here, writing this post. I should study instead. Tomorrow is ENT exam, and of course, I have too much to read it makes me feel anxious and obnoxious. 

These are my plans for tomorrow :

1. Watch new episode of the vampire diaries

2. Wash my clothes.

3. Jog around the lake, I have too much flabs to be burnt! Flabby stomach makes me soggy! I.have.to.melt.those.cellulites.

4.absorb into the wind up bird chronicle by haruki murakami and the choice by Nicholas spark.

5. Actually have the stage of deep sleep of NREM without having to be aroused every 10minutes worrying sick about exams!

And now, how am I going to achieve those when I am still here and yet, my books are patiently and sincerely wanting for me to read them! 

Salam Aidiladha, rakyat Muslim Dan Muslimin sekalian.

Today is aidiladha, which we call eid Bakrid here in India, and yet, I am still prepping myself up for the upcoming exam this Saturday which includes major proportion of the ENT subject! It's a bit daunting you know. Because, everybody is out enjoying their holiday and i am still stuck here, feeling apprehensive for I might not pass my exam this time, since I am too busy being jealous of everybody else who has the chance to go out, shopping and all, without having to worry sick about exams and everything. Plus, how can one sit and study solely when it's holiday? Holiday means holiday, you get to mingle around, empty your purse buying stuffs, ache your heels for running to catch the bus or train, watching the sunset with your friends, eat and drink gluttonily, et centra et centra. So, please, enlighten me, how to manage to lock yourself up in your room, study quietly, without deviating your thoughts every 5 minutes or so? 

UPDATE: I just heard one BIG issue!! Our university isn't recognized by the Malaysia's government anymore. This is a massive serious issue! They say we might need to sit for one exam to determine whether or not we can continue being doctors in Malaysia. If we pass, then we get to be the real medical doctors in Malaysia. If we don't, we have to wait and retake the exam again, till we pass that exam. That is so uncool!! That is the most insane news I've ever gained this week!! I mean, come on!! You have sweated your way, 5 and half freaking years here, having to deal with a lot of problematic hurdles and all, suddenly you're not recognized by the government and you have to take exam in order for you to actually pass your MBBS course. That is just crazy! I just hope JPA do something about it because boy, do I hate this a lot. 

Hello

Hi!  

I'm a friend of aisyah. I'm in Mysore right now. I arrived yesterday's early morning at 5.30am. We have done a lot of things. This is the list of our activities here:

1) baking pavlova

2) making laksa

3) visiting Mysore palace

4) window shopping at Mysore mall

5) played bowling

6) dinner at element's (I had ordered pepper steak and it was really delicious. I finished my food which I didn't usually do)

7) breakfast at kukrahali lake

I enjoyed my whole visit. Tonight I'm going back to mangalore at 10.15pm by bus and I'm back for my nerdy life xD

-zahirahzulkepli

Funny when you are of no fun.

There's completely no fun when the ones holding the upper hand dropped a bombshell just like that, within a snap of fingers! It's mean, you know, to drop a bombshell in the middle of this crazy day of preparing oneselves for exam tomorrow. Come on, why can't you wait till, let's say, tomorrow right after exam is over, at the very least? 

You know what else is no fun? Crying the night before exam!!! It makes your eyes go red and puffy and tired that you probably need to sleep because if you don't, they are going to hurt you like crazy, those eyes.

Dude, I sound psychotic.

Is it normal to be jealous of beautiful women? How is it normal? To tell you the truth,I like to see beautiful people, women especially. Ok, women only, except men like Ian somerhalder or Paul Wesley, other than them two, I really adore beautiful women a lot. Let me tell you, I like to see this one senior's of mine when I was in my secondary school, long back. She is really beautiful. She has been successful both in her love life and her career as well. That makes me admire her all the more. I like her, in a stalk-ish way, of course, but not that sort of stalking that I can't live without her or that I have to kidnap her or something like that. No, it's as simple as if I am her real best friend, I'd be very happy, and the plus point is, I could share her shear beauty as well by learning her style of fashion. How cool is that? I want to copy her kind deeds in any ways, and maybe steal her secret of having slim body too. Hehe. 

Asweh, it feels crazy to read me like this. Haha. Seriously, I am not as scary as I may sound. I am just, well, how to say, astounded by the gush of admiration.

UPDATE : Ignore the above ramblings. All I am jealous of as of right now is that all my friends are either continuing their masters or already preparing themselves for their first children, while I am still stuck here homesicking and worrying about my upcoming exams. Dude, I am jealous. 

An easy recipe, plus it's good too.

To whoever it may concern, this recipe I've created is one of the very most easiest recipe I've ever achieved, and it is a very great recipe to you who is that type of person belonging to a nag-duh group, of which I mean, the group of people who has peak of intention to get lean, slim, attractive body, by using absurd ways, either skipping meals or taking unproportionate meals, and with a little bit of laziness to prepare his own food-I am sure I am being sarcastic to myself here. Meh. I mean, come on. What does that give you? Protein energy malnutrition or just plain mushy-gushy-weak-and-slow body? 

Oh well, this recipe of mine is kinda useful to you too, who is that type of person who is on diet mode to get 6 packs or something like that. Ok, obviously you know who you are. *evil laugh*

So, ok. I think I shall proceed with the recipe before I get myself a good punch on the face because of that sarcasm. Hehe.

All you need to have is a fruit -or you can just chop every fruit you have on the counter-, and a cup, or a bottle, or a jug- whatever you are using- of water. Since I am on the verge of having to sell my own clothes and shoes to earn myself a living (haven't you heard, I am in the bankruptcy mode, hello) , I only used one pomegranate (thank you Asida for buying this for me) and a cup of regular water. All I did was get those tiny bits of pomegranate into a cup of water, and I pressed the bits with spoon, just to get that splash of juice from the fruit I was using. And then, I stirred it well. So there you go, a nice healthy drink in the attempt to become healthy- since I needed to bury that guilt I had inside my stomach due to overconsumption of ice creams and sugary goodness. You can do this with strawberries, blueberries, raspberries, well, hey. Whatever fruits you have or you feel like having, just throw it inside a cup! Or you can do a little twist by adding a few spoons of lime juice into it, it may tastes good too, I suppose.

Ok, now I need to focus on my books! Dang.

Exams are next week. Meh.

I don't know, everytime when exam is suffocatingly approaching, I will have this flowing of ideas on what to write on this blog and I will have the surge of rajin-ness to tap my keypad. I guess it's the adrenaline rush, eh? Probably I am too scared to be too busy, soaking my brain in this full-time-study-because-it's-the-last-minute-study, eh? Of course I am scared, call me a scaredy cat, I wouldn't mind. I am scared that what I read won't be asked on the examination, or maybe I wouldn't be able to steal time to read what I am saving for the last minutes before entering the exam hall since the bell will be ringed calling people in too loudly it ruptures my tympanic membranes. It happens ALL THE TIME! 

I just hope this time, I am going to give my best, put all my efforts at stake and hope that I'll pass with flying colours, InsyaAllah. 

Ah, the weather is so nice you know. I am getting to realize that everytime we are in exam's week, the weather will turn out to be so nice, so cheesy, so cold, so comfy, like we are caked with this humid-cold-chilly weather that we slip out from waking up early and that we doze off every five minutes or so. Seriously though, I won't mind if the weather is nice, if my bed get extra comfy, if the environment is cozy, I just hope that I could study well and be a great doctor in the future. I want to serve people well, because they are the ones who pay for my scholarship, in the first place. So, the least I can do is to be a great doctor. serve them well, and give them the best I could. That's what I am here for, there's no doubt in it.

Asweh, this air is too humid I feel like running off to my bed and get myself underneath that blanket and close my eyes silently and royally fall asleep. Heh.