hello everyone

i learnt something today.


if you don't like something,you DON'T have to be rude about it.

well who cares whether you like it or not right?no i am not pointing to anyone or anything.it just popped up to me the moment before i started typing this post.really.you do agree with me right?everyone has their own opinion.so why you of all people need to judge others?there shouldn't be any superior-ism right?though i admit,i did argue sometimes.i did prove that my choice was better.i did disagree to people sometimes.and i hate it.sebab kalau memang terang tang tang bende tu salah and saya xsetuju,then it's ok la kan.tapi kalau benda xpenting pon nak argue,nampak RUDE.kan?

no offence guys.i just wanted to remind myself to not being rude,to not judge others because me myself is not that good enough.

i posted this as my status. : don't count every hour in the day,make every hour in the day count!

so chop chop!tik tok!

salam :)

i hate the previous post

because of the previous post,i've lost all my good moods!i couldnt study at all!i couldnt focus on anything,not even a single word in my textbook which i supposed to finish at least one chapter by today!and because of that,i got migraine,AGAIN!
so,now you know how much i hate my previous post :(

so let's make things right shall we?let me push aside all the bad feelings im having.let's forget things that weren't supposed to be messed in my already messed-up head.let's begin!


my friend said after reading my post,and after hearing my 'so minute things that shouldn't be brought so big' problems.he said,that problems won't be such big matters if i didn't make it as big things!that were problems that didn't need any further interpretation or whatsoever.it's not a life or death situation.it's what people did that made me sad.if i just ignored it,xjadi masalah besar pon.he asked me to be strong.and keep being strong.no matter how fragile i am,i shouldn't be weak.well,thanks my dear friend! :)

i have to be strong.because strong is the 'thing' i need in order for me to move on and leave this pathetic moment where i keep on thinking of what people did to me or other sad things.so yeah.let make myself more permeable to 'strong' now so that 'strong' can penetrates my body and 'sinks' in my heart,and stays there forever. ;P

i don't want to keep being like this.saya xnak pikir lagi benda yang xpenting ni.i just want bygone to be bygone.i want everything that shouldn't matter to stay insignificant.or better yet,i want it to be gone!xnak da rase macam ni.rase mcam stuck kat satu tempat,where there's no where out.padahal kalau tengok betol2 dengan sangat jelas,there are so many way out.im in that kind of position.so,i choose to walk out.i choose to succeed.

xnak da jadi budak lembik lagi.iihihi.nak jadi tough,nak jadi kuat.xnak terase2 lagi.xnak da pikir bende2 yang xpatut dipikir. :))

go aisyah!you can do it! :)

i am sad

i am hurt.i don't intend to inform all due to what cause i'm hurt.but the main point is,i'm hurt. :'(

everyone knows how to put up a smile even though on the inside,we are deeply hurt.
right no?

i really am a sensitive person.it takes nothing but just one word,one word to make me down.it's easy like that.one word can make me cry.any words.because,i am so very sensitive that i almost cry on everything!i don't know.it's flow naturally in my blood,the sensitive-ness i meant.i may show up a pretty happy smile even i am madly hurt inside.i may cover up with some good words even though my heart is drowning with tears.i may pretend like i don't give a damn for what people say,but i really do care for what others say about me.see?i'm like this very delicate glass that no one can handles.i have this very fragile heart that can explode even if you give me a bad word.i am THAT fragile.so yeah.i am very sensitive almost all the time,like let's say,right now? :'(

i know that people won't care for you all the time.i do know that sometimes,they just don't realize they're making you cry on the inside.it's like they said 'terlepas kate xbole tarik balik' or something like that.i noticed me,myself,sometimes did say something that maked people upset,without even realizing it!i am so,so,so sorry about that!and at this moment,i show a pretty good smile,but does anyone know that i am upset on the inside?no i guess.

i may heal on my own.i can glue my heart back together.so it's ok.mind me. :)

salam.

whose birthday is today?

it's ainina's! my big-fat-sister! ;D (not as fat as aina though.haha)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA!
HAVE A GREAT YEARS AHEAD OF YOU!
jgn lpe belanje aku.muahaha


3 more weeks!just 3 more!and i have loads to read! :(
i am very honest here to say that i am jealous to see someone that doesn't have to work very very hard but still succeed.i do.i do get jealous sometimes.so be grateful if you are one of the geniuses because not all of us have that gift!i know i am not the genius kind,there's nothing genius in me.so i do realize that i really have to struggle to succeed.i am a slow learner,a slow reader too.it's like i have to take almost a month to complete one chapter.seriously,i am a very slow reader..


well,don't waste your time looking back on what you've lost.move on,for life is not meant to be traveled backwards.right no? :)

salam :)

bersyukur bole?

oh that's a question for me,myself actually.so don't bother second guess my motive shall we? :)

arini ari sabtu malam!mase yang ditunggu2 utk beristirehat!this eve we bought a new spec,btw,that 'we' refers to asida and i.ibu will be mad at me for this!but i didnt buy it for any purposeless purpose!sebab frame die da patah.so by hook or by crook,kene la beli jugak kan kan kan?thank God ibu xbace blog ni kalau x mesti kene mara.haha

lagu ape yang dorang pasang kat fly fm ni?sounds so annoying!

oh btw,tomorrow is ainina's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU!

ha!buku the vampire diaries yang aku beli tu,da abes almost half of the book da!kih3


salam :)

risau ok!

i am very,very innocent writing with my eyes fixed on my textbook.so if this is a bit wobbly and messy ,you'll understand why ;)

i am VERY worried about my friend now!i've been calling him like a million time,but he didn't answer any of it!an now i am getting really,terribly worried! :(
he told me yesterday he wanted to watch movie today,so i hope he's watching it now,safely!i cannot survive in this condition where my head all mess up worrying about someone!yesterday i kept thinking of my dad because mom said he has been attacked by fever like 1 week ad!and i was very,very worried about him.but he's fine now.alhamdulillah.

harini macam biasa je hari2 saya..tapi ape yang saya perasan,bile time rehat je,mesti saya sorang je yang makan banyak.mei yee mmg jenis makan sikit.asida pon makan satu bende je.loga pon same.saya je yang makan paling banyak.sob3 :(

ok la.need to stop writing now.
thanks for your time. :)

salam

very bad headache

my friend said it was a severe migraine attack.well whatever it's called,it was terribly bad!it sicken me too much.i cried and even with two of my roomies pampered me,i never stopped crying.sekarang,i feel ok already,i guess.other than feeling sleepy,i think i am ok.alhamdulillah syukur.alhamdulillah :)

makin hari makin terok sakit kepale ni..
harap2 makin hari saya makin kuat dan tabah.amin..

i thought of telling you a story.not a very interesting one,just my normal life.but i shall hold that plan in abeyance since i have too many things to do in this moment.

oh but this story,i want to tell now!it cannot be held anytime longer.haha
danial is getting smarter and smarter everyday.i can hardly keep his track,but i am going fine now.i try my best to catch up with everything that happens to him.of course.why shan't i right?he is my lovely anak buah ok!
he can now play the thing i bought for him which i dont know how to describe it very well.just now when i saw him played with that thing thru skype,it made me very happy.semangat sgt die smpi air lir meleleh2.hihi.and when he;s inside the small car faris bought for him,he pusing2 stereng kete tu mcm pro je ok!SANGAT COMEL!

ok la.tu je.


salam :)

yabedabeduuu~

i spent like half of my night copying pharmac report in my record book.still,i am sitting right in front my baby-pink-laptop,writing this post and regretting every minute of it!STILL,i keep on writing =_=''

well,everyone has been moving on.some are still working,but get better in their work as days progress,some,maybe still deciding what they really want to do about theirselves,and maybe some of them are still wondering what have they did or going to do next.but when it comes to me,i am still here..everyday when i came back from school,the first thing i do,bukak laptop.pastu tgk gmb2 family sy dlm facebook.ive been very,VERY homesick these days.i blamed myself for counting days to go back.that's make my everyday life seems very moody.today,i check on danial punye gambar.oohh.he's growing up very well!he has become this very cute kid!

misshomemisshomemisshome.can u interpret how miserable i am now?


ok be strong aisyah!you know you are strong.you just have to prove it to yourself.


i think i have to stop now or i'll waste more time than i should.

salam :)

correction

i don't think my previous post macam ok kan?oh wait?none of them were act,right no?-_-'

ok la..nak cite bnd laen la.kih3.
ptg td,i made a new wishlist.i want to be a 'useful' daughter when im home this july.HAHA.still early aite?it's ok!i have too much time to waste,i guess.LOL (ok i don't like this 'lol' thing!)

so,here's my plans :

1)i want to cook for my parents.i want to make their breakfasts,lunches,and dinners and suppers.
and i want to cook something healthy. eg : for breakfast,oats with crunched cornflakes?it's my usual breakfast btw.as for lunch,it's kinda heavy meal right?so tu depends la.for dinner : oso depends. for supper : a healthy soup perhaps? :)

2) i want to help wash clothes.by machine of course.HA HA.and i want to hang them.and lipat and kemas dlm almari.

3)kemas rumah.oh wait.this i am too lazy to do ;D

4)nak jaga danial mucuk.

5) nak made variety of desserts! :)


really looking forward to these plans!

oh home.i miss ya!

salam

they say that home is where the heart is

i wonder how a leader can be so powerfully patient?they look tough on the outside,but on the inside,who knows?but i am guessing they are strong on both the sides! :)
i mean,when someone be a leader,they are taking a very great responsibility.they have to handle so many things.so many people to manage.it's very convenient when people stand by you,support you in every possible way,but not everyone will be the same right?i think,it's ok to argue A BIT,if you are sure the thing that you argue about is true.and if you really have a very good reason to debate a bit,then go for it.but do it in a proper way.like talk personally.now we have so many convenient methods of communication,all in a fingertips.pakai je handphone to anta msg kat fb ke ape ke.tapi knape nak lawan2 and kutuk2 besar2an kan?if you think you are right,then why you want all the publicity you can get to support your argument right?what i am trying to say here is,kalau ade bende nak cakap,or rase xbetol,DO IT IN A PROPER WAY.people will listen.maybe they don't response to you in a blink of an eye,because maybe they have a really pack schedules that you didnt know how fatigue they can get.so be patient.and again,DO IT IN A PROPER WAY.im just saying :)

to all leaders out there,be strong!people choose you because they know what you are capable of.people don't pick someone who they can't trust.they don't simply set up a legacy with a bad,terrible leader.they need a leader who can change something for them,in a good way of course.they want a leader who can fight for their needs,who can stand by their side and speaks what they think is right.a lot of challenges you'll face.more beban to tanggung.you just have to carry all of them on your shoulders.so whatever happens,stay strong!always be a good leader,who can change the legacy,at least.


and why am i talking about this whole leader thing?don't ask me!haha


today i ate a lot of kfc until my stomach couldnt tahan already.
i want to make a soup to make my gastro-intestinal system feels good again.so,bye now!

salam :)

emosi

i am imagining cheesecake now.and what's with the drool? =_=''

i am missing each and everyone now.trust me.that's the price i have to pay for not coming back on this february!oh maybe because our principal lovesss us so much that he didnt give us any holiday,even after a nerve wrecking exam,which is our first internal!ok.i 'like' him more now. :(

i got this terrible headache,that i couldnt explain how bad it was!i am on antibiotics now,due to my recurrent tonsillitis.maybe that explained it.tapi,it was terrible!it's like i xley tahan ok!like something was punching me from the inside!debussshhh!and no one will ever understand how painful it was.and still is :'(

i called ibu this evening.but she was too busy packing.so i talked to my dad.and he told me stories which i laughed so hard!ho..he really knows how to make me laugh. :)
and then i talked to my evil sister,ainina.HA HA.she asked for a new watch for her upcoming birthday!when she wants something,don't you ever think of something less than rm200!and don't even for a split second think that she will ask something that can make u save.a BIG NO!hahaha.she wants like this watch,that costs me about rm500!how can i find that much of money? =_='
but since she promised to buy me an iphone 4,so i'll make an effort to buy her the watch!i say,i WILL try! ;D
and ayah told me,izzati is there with them.saje2 nak abeskan mase cuti.she brought with her like a pile of books so that nina can tutor her a bit.hahahahhahahahhahahaha.i laughed because i knew how nina will act when someone wants to study with her.she always ajar with hidung kembang2,and ganas2,as if she is a principal!garang nok~ so good luck with THAT izzati! ;P
i also told ibu my cooking is getting better.thanks to her for all the recipes!i can now survive with my own cooking.i can now cook without calling her first,asking for the way to cook that particular lauk.hihi.i gave a pat on my back and a 'waa.power la ko skang' gesture.ahak!

i think this is the longest post i have this week -_-'
maybe because of the homesick-ness,i guess?

i don't have a diary in a book form.so,i write everything here.this is my virtual diary.like hello.we are in a modern century.why waste all these technologies right? ;P

mind me sweet pea.


salam :)

first novel

if you have read my previous post,then you will have a clue what i am about to write now :)

i have found a new way to make use of my time well. :)
i bought a novel!and this novel is the first novel i've ever bought in my entire life!hihi



so instead of talking way too much,why not indulge myself into my new novel,which is 'the vampire diaries',as in the vampire diaries!hellllloooo! ;P

it's 299 rupees!can u imagine that?it's cheaper here!people did tell that books here are cheaper as compared to malaysia.so if you want me to buy a book,i can help you! :)

but the sad part is,after reading it a few chapters,i came to realise that there are differences.i think i like the series more.coz elena in that book,seemed so inappropriate.they plotted her as a queen,xde sorang laki pon yg berjaye xterpikat ngn die.it sounded so 'yucks'!i hate her in this novel. :(

ok la..salam :)

a post to myself

i always,and when i say always,it means a very truly 'always'! :(
i always say the wrong things.
i always speak too much.
i always hurt other people,and the worst thing is i don't even realize it! :(
i behave like a children,which i am NOT!

and if i want to list it all,it will be too much!!seriously!
i mean,i know myself..i try to change.or TRIED.but it's seems to not be working!

so here,i want to apologize for all the things i did in the past,or will be doing,well,who knows?maybe tomorrow?.
sometimes i don't have to do the thing that i don't want to do.i am so,so sorry.


so here's reminder for myself!

I NEED TO CHANGE!
I CANNOT BE THE MOST SELFISH PERSON IN THE WORLD!
I CANNOT HURT OTHERS EVEN IF THEY HURT ME!
I CANNOT PLEASE MY TEMPER!
I CANNOT DO SOMETHING WITHOUT THINKING THE CONSEQUENCES!
I SHOULD STOP TALKING UNNECESSARY WORDS!I MEAN IT!!

you tried,it's good.but try HARDER aisyah. :)

a dull me in a dull day

it is me or does today seems dull?
oh.maybe it's me that makes my day turns dull,and not 'fresh'.

due tige hari ni,macam biase je kehidupan sy.same old same old.
wake up,prepare myself for school,have an 8-9 class,then with bus to hospital for posting,then eat during lunch,then classes till 5 pm.same routine,same everything!
and im not complaining~

but as time passes,i become this more and more weak person.i don't know.maybe i miss home so much that turns me into this kind of emotion,this kind of mood.seriously,i miss home.SO MUCH that i couldn't even tell :'( .
and the fact that i'll be back home lambat lagi,yakni bulan 7,it weakens me more.and more.and more :'(

last night,my friends and i,we were too boring and had so much time to waste that we kept googl-ing all kinds of malaysian's foods.and right now,while im typing all these alphabets,i keep thinking bout those foods,and i think i am drooling ;P

mind me.i am always like this.ALWAYS.haha.u can't imagine how people can survive having me around them.poor them ;D

so ok la.it's already 1.15.i need to prepare myself for this 2pm class.taa~

salam :)

saya budak rajin

saya budak yang xrajen tapi nak jadi rajen mulai dari hari ini.

SAYA BUDAK RAJIN.

moga2 hari mendatang ni saya terus rajen dan bertambah rajen.aminn..

moga segalanya berjalan dengan lancar..

moga keluarga saya,saya.kawan2 dan semua bahagia sentiasa..


saya nak jadi rajin. :)

sedih.homesick.

rase sunyi la..hurm :(

kan best kalau ade kat rumah skang..hm :'(
huwaaaa!

danial da makin comel btw!sangat!da btambah nakal da!makin geyam tgk gmba2 die..ei la bdk kcik ni! :)

miss him mucho!

isk3

i am not very good in telling 'i love you' to them :

susah gile nk tgkp gmb aiman skali.tp aiman is also included in the 'them'!

but deep down,i hope you knew that i love you.always have,always will.

i am terribly stubborn somehow.kadang2 ade je bende yg xdga cakap..ade je yg nak lawan kan?HA HA

tapi,i love you,more than you know.miles separate us apart.but this distances,make my loves for you grow even more.how i wish to be with you guys now.i am a very VERY talkative person.and who doesnt know that? ;P but believe it or not,when it comes to say 'i love you' to my dearest family,it's like i am the most silent person in the world. :(and so, i write.im not sure ibu or ayah will read this because i dont think they even knew about this whole blog thing.tapi,just so you know,na sayang korang sume!ibu ayah paling best dalam dunia ni!sayang gile!sangat bersyukur!SANGAT2!homesick sgt skang.jeles dak nina ade kat rumah skang.da la cuti lame plak tu.jealous sgt ok!nak balik jugakkkk :'( na sayang ibu.ingat tu.walaupon na jauh,walaupon kdg2 na xcl ibu.bkn sbb xnk cl,tp sbb ptg na blk skola lmbt,pastu bl na blk skola na tros masak2.tp tme na abes msk da mlm da wktu msia.ibu pon tdi awl.so na xnk la kco ibu.hihi.tp na syg ibu sgt2.na rindu ibu :''(( na syg ayah sgt2 jugak.ayah da xrajen on9 da skang..da malas la kot.lagipon danial da hyperactive da skang.makin jenuh la ayah nak kawal.haha.xpela.na sayang ayah.rindddduuuuu sangat nak kenekan ayah.hahaha.love you both! :))

h.o.m.e.s.i.c.k :''(

bagai pungguk rindukan bulan

ceh.title nak jiwang je.xley bla.

arini ade orang tu balik dari bandung!hoyeah hoyeah! :P

arini xtau nak wat ape.tp rsenye nk mkn mlm kt kfc la.

ok.ni je post utk hari ini.

salam

homeache?

they all go to have some time off.

my lovely family is in terengganu now.because aina is there for her dpa's kursus.so derang bawak danny g jumpe aina kat sane laa..2+1 right?danny can meet his mom,and can jalan2 at the same time.nice!i miss malaysia so badly now!

my dearest friend is in bandung now.he has like this thing he need to attend..2+1 also.bole jalan2 jugak kat sane..

and i,still stuck in this place. =_+''
oh yeah!i saw the eclipse tonight!it was beautiful!subhanallah :)
we went to the rooftop to see it since the tall buildings blocked the view from my room.
and our swimming pool captivated me tonight.i don't know.maybe today i am into this 'environment' thing.padahal tiap2 ari pon same je swimming pool tu macam tu. ;D
i planned to take a picture of everything i saw today.i tried to take picture of the eclipse using my phone's camera.but it wasnt nice..i dont have a dslr with me now.can't afford one.so i have no pic to upload today.

i am having this headache since i dont know when.but it feels heavy.i feel dizzy.the first thought was because of lack of sleep.tp da tido pon still pening lg.the second thought was power mate da tambah kot..entahlaaa :(

i can't say how i miss everyone right now :'(

tah ape ape

i will not give up!i will not turn myself out from this thing i have started this month.i won't!

as some of you all know,here we can hardly find any seafood.there got la one place that sell all these things,but the problemo is,next to it,is the place to buy p*rk! =_='' i know right?i know :(

so we never,and will never buy seafood from there.and we are too lazy to drag ourselves to the market,yg sgt padat,dan busuk2 ngn bau2 tempe2.hahaha.malas la nak g.so,we have no other option but to take chicken,almost everyday! hu~

tp stu ari ni time ak ngn housemate aku kua,ttbe nmpk ad pakcik naek moto ni,die jual ikan2 sume,and udang2 sume la.sangaaaaaaaaaaaat happy!and he's seafood looked nice!xdela nmpk cm busuk ke ape ke.ok la!so we decided to buy some prawns,just to test it's freshness.

and udang tu memang sedap.


ok.tu je cerita buang masa aku arini.salam

feel like giving up :'(

i am a quitter. not very proud of myself.

i want this feeling to be gone!NOW!

budak comel

very cutie little sweet pea!comel sangat!aku gigit jugak karangggg~

oopps i did it again

i am really sorry for the way i behave now.

i didn't mean to be uncooperative or whatever,i am just too lazy to do almost everything.

sometimes,or most of the times,when i haven't indulge myself with a good mood,then every tasks given,i will do like bluntly.mcm malas2 cenggitu la.ha la.kalau da malas,memang payah la kan?haha

and when you say it ou loud,you know you sound selfish.again,sorry.

so after writing this post,i will TRY to be as semangat as i can be.cop cop!kemasss bilikkkkkkkkkkk!

salam :)

a day without you is like a year without rain

i eat a lot.many of my friends have accomplished what they wished for.they put a very good effort to do it.and they have got their results.i dont know when is my turn,but i am still hoping that someday,my dream will come true.insyaAllah..

sometimes i feel like giving up,since there is only minute changes that can be seen.i want a huge difference before and after.see?i am a quitter :'(

now everyday i regret what i did in the past.all the time has been wasted just like that.poof.and everything's gone.i knew i will felt this way.i am the one who caused everything.i wasted my precious time by watching movies and all that kind of stuff,so now,one more month before exam,and i am heck freaking out!so many things to read.it's not like i have started anything!i am a slow learner.so yeah.i need more time.one month is surely not enough!even double the time also is still not enough!so sendiri buat sendiri tanggung right?

i am not the brightest person in my class.neither do i can answer questions directly being bombard to me by the lecturers.you know how it felt when at a moment,the teacher asked you a question regarding what you have learned in your first year,then people sitting beside you all were whispering the answer,even people at the back like shouting to try out the question given.only you,who looked down,whispering nothing!do you know how it felt?i know i do.because i am the person who couldn't finish her first year subjects,who talks a lot but shut her mouth tightly when the teacher asks a question.i feel pity for myself.hurm.

so yeah, i am hurt now.seems like everything is going not so well for me.seems like i am the only person here who knows nothing.and i feel terribly bad,and mad.and my homesick mood is kicking me now.so i am twice the hurt. :'(

i talk to myself this everyday