sedih 2

i do think we've reached our 'breaking point'.
we have exceeded our threshold value in controlling our emotion.

well,i guess we had been strong for a long time.
i mean,people do cry don't they?
it doesn't mean you are weak that you cry.i support those who said we cry because we have been strong for so long.and i did't argue when people said you are too weak to let yourself cry almost all the time.either way,the way you hurt yourself by crying defines how strong you are i guess.i also think crying hurts you.basically,you'll have like this huge burden pressuring your chest.then you try not to burst.that's painful too.then your eyes will be stimulated and cause the sacs to release tears.after like a pail of teardrops you've collected,your eyes will become like this irresistably red and swollen.so overall,it's painful.

but the feeling of 'let-go' you feel after you cried,is totally worth the pain.right?

yeah.i reached my breaking point.i burst out of tears.i miss my mom and dad so desperately.what makes my feeling worse is knowing nina is there thus making the whole family except me is in the house..sad.i am sad.
asida felt the same way too.she tried hard to hide the feelings she locked inside her mind,holding them together ensuring that no one sees them.unfortunately,she reached her limit too.she is sad too.

i guess being so so far away from your family makes you appreciate them more.makes you learn how to be a better person.makes you realize how important each and everyone of your family members are.all lead to one thing.it makes you realize how God created them all as a reminder to you to make you worship Him more.alhamdulillah.thanks Allah for my family.i have never and could never ask for better.

i have a cute father,who people said looks like me to some extent (or vice versa).he is so wonderful father,a lovingly best friend of mine,and a wonderful boyfriend of mine.he likes to make me laugh.everything he does,makes me love him more and more each and everyday.my mother,is the most beautiful person on earth,the best cook,the charming and amazing woman.i love her.i miss her a lot.i miss everything about her.
my elder sister,and her husband,and her extremely cute child..i miss them.even though we barely talk to each other on the phone (except for danial who i cannot resist to hear his charming voice), i really truly hope they know that i miss them each day.upnext is the noob aiman.haha.he is the warrior of the house.he is the only brother i have when i was a kid (coz now i have faris to be my other brother).i was afraid of him when i was little.now,i am afraid of him no more.instead,i respect him.i know everything he does is for our good.he takes care of us a lot.i think he thought he has the responsibility to watch over us sisters since he is the only alpha among us siblings.that's why he always makes decisions.the very obvious thing about him is he is a saver.he doesn't spend much.he buys what he needs,not what he wants.we can hardly see him eat outside.he rather buy the raw materials and cook them himself.he likes to save.it's in his soul i guess.next comes my other sister.the lousy one.the 'kelesau' one.the one who speaks like we are like 10feets away from her.the one who is almost bulimic.the one who thinks she's cute,pretty,beautiful or any others in that matter.the one who asks me to buy expensive stuffs in return of her 'belanja-ing' me.unfair right?i know.haha.she always fights me.underneath all,i think deep down,she just misses me.she just doesn't want to admit it YET.no worries.i already knew you miss me. :P
easy to conclude,i miss them all. :'(