perasaan

just finished cleaning up all the mess in my room.its too messy.i just cudnt bare the messiness any longer.so i knew i had to do something.or else,no one will dare come to my room.they may think my room is like a sarang lebah.or even worse! haha. but now,it's so clean that you won't even dare to step on the floor on dirty feet!coz you might spoil the shininess. haha.

while i was doing my chores,i thought of something.i don't really like people who just pretend to care but they actually don't.i remembered i read this somewhere,it sounded like this 'don't tell others your probs coz 20% feel sorry for you but 80% glad you have it'.i don't remember the whole exact words,but you get my point right? i do agree at some point.coz you see,some,or most of them i guess,just glad you have those probs.and i probably think that the secret underneath this is because of jealousy,isn't it?jealousy is a very harmful 'thing',it can destroys you,it can destroys your relationships,it can even lower down your self-esteem..i am not good myself.of course sometimes i get jealous with others.i get jealous of someone who is rajin,who gets everything she or he wants,i get jealous with someone who looks like she or he has a perfect everything.but that doesn't mean we cannot control ourselves right?that doesn't mean that you are a terrible person.awak hanye kene jaga hati awak,yakinkan diri awak dengan bende2 baik,jgn jealous2.haha. mengadulah kat tuhan,sebab DIA xpernah lari dari kita,Dia sentiase ade dengar masalah kita,Dia yg xpernah putus asa tunggu kita datang.Dia je yang boleh dengar segalanya.. :))
surah an-nas juga mungkin membantu.. :)

kadang2 saya akui,saya pon xla suke sngt bile seseorang tu mcm malas nak layan kite,tapi 'terpaksa' layan kite.nampak mcm xikhlas kan?tapi bila pikir balik,we cudnt blame them anyways.sebab kalau kita da tau die malas nak layan kita,or just pretended to care,then why we wasted our time by telling something to someone who doesn't care right?mungkin diorang nak privacy diorang sendiri.so,kite pon xley la nak salahkan die.kan kan kan?

haha.it suddenly occurred to me tadi.xde kaitan ngan sesiape pon.i am not pointing to anyone.saje nak kongsi perasaan je.. :)

salam