homesick lagi

i ate too much of chocolates today,even im thinking to have another one right now.
oh i might have sugar shock before i say to myself not to eat any more of those fatty-sugary food.

i want to make wiser plans for myself.coz the way i see it,i watch to many movies,i surf internet more than the time i spend to read,i busy playing games almost all the time.none of these give me credit to succeed in the future don't you think so too?

i come here for a reason.Allah puts me here for a reason.i should just stop asking what if what if and just make myself adaptable to the current situation and be happy with everything i've achieved.alhamdulillah

i miss ibu so much.ayah too.ibu said the entire house has been attacked with eye infection.poor them.lets just pray for them to get better soon.i miss those chubby cheeks of danial and his big fatty hands.i just miss his laugh,his smile,his 2 upper and 2 lower central canines,i miss,well,everything.i just hope everyone will always be happy and be safe under His protection.just so you know,i love you guys more than everything. :)

all the memories since i live for these 20 years flashed back to me and kept bouncing in my head this evening.great things,good things,bad,wonderful,horror,terrific,just name it..there's a time where i was being a pathetic person where i regretted the sad part in my life.well,luckily,that was a long time ago.all those made me wiser..i am content with my life now.everything is in good shape.though hardships gonna be there,but every ugly larvae will turn to beautiful butterflies right?there's a rainbow after the rain.so yeah.just go through with it.you'll find a way to go through almost everything.

you know,everytime i want to say goodbye to mom and dad before i take my flight back to india,i'll surely be crying.i know it's been like,more than 3 times i've been in the same situation,but i just couldn't sustain myself.goodbye is hard.very.like terribly hard..i just couldn't train myself to not to cry every time the same thing occurs.i tried.seriously.but i just couldn't.i failed like all the time.mom will be crying too.dad,well,he'll show convincing face,the face that tells you 'don't worry dear.you are going to be great there.everything will be fine.we always love you,we always pray for you.we'll miss you,but life has to move on whether you like it or not.it won't stop just because you want it to.the clock won't stop clicking.may you'll be with His blessing all the time'. i love you guys..


well,there like a pile of unfinished works of mine,so i'll better be off.

salam and good night everyone. :)