i am tantalized.

boy oh boy i am in the mood! i just watched Project Runway, which made me so eager and enthusiastic! i was ecstatic i couldn't inhale good oxygen!! i want it so badly to design clothes, to produce dresses, for my own hobby, my own collections! i am not that handy to knit beautiful designs, to sew gorgeous clothes, to manipulate something unconventional into super unbelievable extraordinary dresses! how come you don't know anything about Project Runway, poor you! i just watched this one episode where they made such exquisite, extraordinary, super gorgeous dresses out of materials from a pet store! yes, believe it or not, PET STORE! i couldn't believe how creative a human brain can be! well, OK, i know it is so capable of everything, from memorizing to contemplating ideas to planing futures or anything, just name it (thank you Allah for your brains guys!), but i mean, come on! PET MATERIALS for Heidi Klum's sake? heck, you guys are geniuses! i, for the life of me, am very much eager to have such creativity, such manipulative capability, such hands that so artsy. i am friggin' jealous! you know, i like to design dresses! i always design dresses for women especially, during classes, sorry lecturers! i love designing dresses or gowns, or clothes for kids! if only i have the knowledge of sewing and the materials to actually produce dresses! of course, also, if only i have the leverage of having a really good fortune that i have so much of money in my bank account that i can spend them without even worry sick of depleting them, then i would be very happy, to tell you the truth. what am i saying in the beginning? oh yes. let me tell you this, this one particular guy in that show, made a beautiful dress out of birds seeds! BIRDS SEEDS!!!!! can you imagine that?!!! and it turned out to be such a glimmering, glossy, silhouette dress! i was breathless for one second! my rib cage was about to explode with carbon dioxide retained in my lungs, and the pressure inside my body had the capability to even produce hernia! i loved that dress that much! that left me thinking, dreaming even, to have the time, the source, the money, to actually make dresses of my own one fine day. sewing my children's clothes, is a must. but designing beautiful dresses and actually sell them (having a boutique sounds 'delicious'), tantamount to a butterfly having backbone, seeing how busy i will be after i finish my MBBS. ah, one fine day, if Allah wills. my plan to open a restaurant is still inside of me OK, but then again, my life would be so much fun with a boutique too, am i right?
OK, now after the massive hoo ha, i am going to go fresh up and take a deep breath to brush off the adrenaline. 

bye.