i just woke up, and the worst thing is, i have been spending a lot here, surfing and all.
if only i can go online shopping, that would worth it i guess. sadly, i can't. because ICICI services don't include online shopping , or that's what i heard.
well, in any case you ask me which website i spend most of my time at, i would gladly answer my blog it is, with the 'no,i am not self-obsessed' face. yeah.that would be it. i am not self-absorbed, not in any possible way, because, i just ain't the human being who always thought of herself and no other, i am not the one who always put myself first in any matter. but if you wanna claim that i am selfish, hm, if that's the case, i could agree to that, to some extent, because believe it or not, i am selfish, sometimes. if flashbacks transmit the right and true images, i did think of myself first before anyone else on 'where to eat' part, and 'what do you want to do now' part. oh, also on 'i want to have it first' part sometimes, or most of the time perhaps. being the pain in the ass is not the attitude i want to conquer, trust me, not on my list, no, none. sometimes i pity my housemates because they have to tolerate, well, me! and 'me' ain't easy honey, trust me.
i feel like i am blessed with having the best housemates ever, because they always the ones that won't argue, won't pull any annoying faces, the simplest way to put up with this is, they never complain, none that i know of. if they do complain, maybe not to me, to others, i won't mind, at all. since they pretty much make my life here a whole lot easier, i can bare few ups and downs with them. most of the time, i will always be the one who screw up every thing, truth to be told. i will get overly-emotional for stupid reasons, then i will lock up myself in my room, crying inside out because of, well did i mention, stupid reasons? kadang2 tu xpatut pon nak emo sebenarnye tau, tapi i am a woman, so i guess you would understand, it's logic, no need to explain much. so yeah. salu je merajuk dulu. one day, even myself cannot bare the burden of having too emotional emotions, i asked them to write on this little piece of paper, like messages from them, to me, to wish me not to be over-emotional, not to be too grumpy, too snobby and whatever bad words possible. and they did. yes, i did paste it on my book rack, so as to remind myself everyday, not to abandon, or to neglect the best things Allah has given me. i am having this blissful life, thank you Allah.
after today and yesterday over-excessive sleeping hours, i get super-hype now, and guilty, terribly for not appreciating the extra holiday to study well, to prepare well. tomorrow will be pharmacology, pray for me okay. In addition to everything i have told you, i wanna add some more. Pathology and Microbiology were terrible. i answered them terribly. if you ask me to rate, 3 out of 10 will make the cut, in which as you can see, lower than what's needed to pass. like i mentioned earlier in the previous posts, i really hope my gut instinct will be wrong, and eventually, i pass, everything. ameen ameen. rather, i should believe in my loin instinct. yes. loin instinct. that would be interesting, no? having said that, i do agree at some point, that life really is a perpetual yesterday for me, because yesterday, i felt like giving up on studying hard and strive for other papers just because the previous papers i did bad. so i kept on blaming, tormenting myself. hated it.and i should get over it. i don't want to have a life, full of regrets. nah. no one roots for it, trust me on this. no one.
Ian Somerholder himself is excessively good looking. Paul Wesley is smoking hot himself.
so when both combine, you could die, literally.
i saw them both standing, giving the People's choice awards, and they both looked superfine, super-awesome and super-smoking-hot.
see where i am going there? sigh.
ciao.
if only i can go online shopping, that would worth it i guess. sadly, i can't. because ICICI services don't include online shopping , or that's what i heard.
well, in any case you ask me which website i spend most of my time at, i would gladly answer my blog it is, with the 'no,i am not self-obsessed' face. yeah.that would be it. i am not self-absorbed, not in any possible way, because, i just ain't the human being who always thought of herself and no other, i am not the one who always put myself first in any matter. but if you wanna claim that i am selfish, hm, if that's the case, i could agree to that, to some extent, because believe it or not, i am selfish, sometimes. if flashbacks transmit the right and true images, i did think of myself first before anyone else on 'where to eat' part, and 'what do you want to do now' part. oh, also on 'i want to have it first' part sometimes, or most of the time perhaps. being the pain in the ass is not the attitude i want to conquer, trust me, not on my list, no, none. sometimes i pity my housemates because they have to tolerate, well, me! and 'me' ain't easy honey, trust me.
i feel like i am blessed with having the best housemates ever, because they always the ones that won't argue, won't pull any annoying faces, the simplest way to put up with this is, they never complain, none that i know of. if they do complain, maybe not to me, to others, i won't mind, at all. since they pretty much make my life here a whole lot easier, i can bare few ups and downs with them. most of the time, i will always be the one who screw up every thing, truth to be told. i will get overly-emotional for stupid reasons, then i will lock up myself in my room, crying inside out because of, well did i mention, stupid reasons? kadang2 tu xpatut pon nak emo sebenarnye tau, tapi i am a woman, so i guess you would understand, it's logic, no need to explain much. so yeah. salu je merajuk dulu. one day, even myself cannot bare the burden of having too emotional emotions, i asked them to write on this little piece of paper, like messages from them, to me, to wish me not to be over-emotional, not to be too grumpy, too snobby and whatever bad words possible. and they did. yes, i did paste it on my book rack, so as to remind myself everyday, not to abandon, or to neglect the best things Allah has given me. i am having this blissful life, thank you Allah.
after today and yesterday over-excessive sleeping hours, i get super-hype now, and guilty, terribly for not appreciating the extra holiday to study well, to prepare well. tomorrow will be pharmacology, pray for me okay. In addition to everything i have told you, i wanna add some more. Pathology and Microbiology were terrible. i answered them terribly. if you ask me to rate, 3 out of 10 will make the cut, in which as you can see, lower than what's needed to pass. like i mentioned earlier in the previous posts, i really hope my gut instinct will be wrong, and eventually, i pass, everything. ameen ameen. rather, i should believe in my loin instinct. yes. loin instinct. that would be interesting, no? having said that, i do agree at some point, that life really is a perpetual yesterday for me, because yesterday, i felt like giving up on studying hard and strive for other papers just because the previous papers i did bad. so i kept on blaming, tormenting myself. hated it.and i should get over it. i don't want to have a life, full of regrets. nah. no one roots for it, trust me on this. no one.
Ian Somerholder himself is excessively good looking. Paul Wesley is smoking hot himself.
so when both combine, you could die, literally.
i saw them both standing, giving the People's choice awards, and they both looked superfine, super-awesome and super-smoking-hot.
see where i am going there? sigh.
ciao.
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