what i am about to say may hurt someone, i mean, whoever eats sugar feels the sweetness. or maybe some will disagree. this is my blog anyway so if you people cannot swallow it in, then you better be off.
i don't understand why a wise person will keep on blaming the other person, like everything is a one side fault. i mean, if you weren't guilty, do you think all of this will happen? did you even think maybe there was a part where you were the one who was taking part in the faulty department too? if not, why should i call you wise then? OK. over all, it was my fault anyway. but the thinking keeps on bugging me and i just couldn't shut it so i guess here is the best place to put all of these mind-blowing statements together. lets get to the points. everything in this world, cannot be just one-sided problem. i mean, both took part, so perhaps both should take the blame, am i right? why one side must persistently blame the other side and never think of his or her own side? maybe, just maybe, this was his or her fault too. do you get me? what is the need of telling all others that the person should be finger-pointed is only this person and not you, because you think that not even a nanometer guilt you need to carry in your system? i don't know if what i write makes sense but i want you to get the idea of it. you cannot just blame just the one person. if you were involved in any part, you need to know that somehow, you were making mistakes too. so don't burden and put all the blame and torture to the other side only. well, i know maybe people around your vicinity might think that the one you blame is the one who did all the wrongdoings and not their precious friend, but come on.be realistic for just a moment and stop hating or judging or any of the sorts! open your eyes and consider others too! in my case, after a horrible and unbelievable moments of wondering, i came out with a conclusion that i accept the fact that i was the one who started this thing and who should be blamed and should carry all the guilt alone, because i was guilty, still am, mind you. i was a very terrible person. honest. i exaggerate not. not that i steal or kill anyone, it is only i did terrible things that hurt many, trust me, many people in a nick of time. i made people miserable. i know maybe people may not forgive, but i am sincerely asking for forgiveness. i want to change. i am. i just need time to let all of this mess be washed out from this place. i know you don't understand and i don't really ask for your understanding, i just want you to pray for me, for me to become a better person, for Allah to eases my way, for people to forgive me. also, i ask to whoever reads this, to please forgive me.maybe you don't know me because maybe you fond out this blog randomly, still maybe i piss you off with my words because i am weird in a sense that sometimes even if i feel i used the right words, it still weren't, so yes, i am terribly sorry for everything. sorry. so to anyone who is everyone, i am sorry.
Asida said, just be strong for a moment. because people will eventually get bored with the gossips and the hatred so they will let it off, and i will ultimately be OK again. so i hope that what she told me will happen immediately.
this makes me feel terrible all over again so i will stop writing.
i don't understand why a wise person will keep on blaming the other person, like everything is a one side fault. i mean, if you weren't guilty, do you think all of this will happen? did you even think maybe there was a part where you were the one who was taking part in the faulty department too? if not, why should i call you wise then? OK. over all, it was my fault anyway. but the thinking keeps on bugging me and i just couldn't shut it so i guess here is the best place to put all of these mind-blowing statements together. lets get to the points. everything in this world, cannot be just one-sided problem. i mean, both took part, so perhaps both should take the blame, am i right? why one side must persistently blame the other side and never think of his or her own side? maybe, just maybe, this was his or her fault too. do you get me? what is the need of telling all others that the person should be finger-pointed is only this person and not you, because you think that not even a nanometer guilt you need to carry in your system? i don't know if what i write makes sense but i want you to get the idea of it. you cannot just blame just the one person. if you were involved in any part, you need to know that somehow, you were making mistakes too. so don't burden and put all the blame and torture to the other side only. well, i know maybe people around your vicinity might think that the one you blame is the one who did all the wrongdoings and not their precious friend, but come on.be realistic for just a moment and stop hating or judging or any of the sorts! open your eyes and consider others too! in my case, after a horrible and unbelievable moments of wondering, i came out with a conclusion that i accept the fact that i was the one who started this thing and who should be blamed and should carry all the guilt alone, because i was guilty, still am, mind you. i was a very terrible person. honest. i exaggerate not. not that i steal or kill anyone, it is only i did terrible things that hurt many, trust me, many people in a nick of time. i made people miserable. i know maybe people may not forgive, but i am sincerely asking for forgiveness. i want to change. i am. i just need time to let all of this mess be washed out from this place. i know you don't understand and i don't really ask for your understanding, i just want you to pray for me, for me to become a better person, for Allah to eases my way, for people to forgive me. also, i ask to whoever reads this, to please forgive me.maybe you don't know me because maybe you fond out this blog randomly, still maybe i piss you off with my words because i am weird in a sense that sometimes even if i feel i used the right words, it still weren't, so yes, i am terribly sorry for everything. sorry. so to anyone who is everyone, i am sorry.
Asida said, just be strong for a moment. because people will eventually get bored with the gossips and the hatred so they will let it off, and i will ultimately be OK again. so i hope that what she told me will happen immediately.
this makes me feel terrible all over again so i will stop writing.
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