self motivation.

being the least favorite of them all doesn't make you isolated you know, maybe to some extent, you may feel like you are being alienated by them, still, they don't take any part in any of your EC coupling mechanisms or any of your joint movements for that matter in standing on your own two feet. you stand on your own, maybe crouches will help if you have some pain or something.  OK. what i have been meaning to say is that just stay strong and think positive. i know being strong and stay positive are not my best bet, still, it is doable you know. you just need faith. you need to believe in yourself that eventually, everything is going to be just fine. you have Allah with you forever. not even a split second you don't have Him. you need to realize that your situation is not hard enough that you might have to run amok, nor you have to jump off of a building. i know i always argue with myself on being happy with everything that happens around me. i know sometimes i break down, or most of the time, i break down. i realize that being a superwoman is not my thing, being a childish and peachy and mushy is, instead. i notice that i am no good in giving advice and my words are the least to be taken by people just because i am me and they still stick with my pasts,like my pasts have been glued to their brain. BUT, being the least likable person doesn't give you the horror of living. you just have to believe and stick to whatever you have. hold on to the promise that with you focusing on what deeds you need to do to enter Jannah is the aim of your life. at the end of the road, only you can change your yourselves. well, i did complain about staying in India. i did mention for many times of me being homesick and everything. but trust me, i will never give up in surviving this place. i will never let tempe wins over me, in having me break down i mean. i will never lose to the surrounding pressure. and i hope everyone will do the same too, no matter where you are. keeps your heads ahead. keep your minds focused. keep your bodys fit. keep your mental sound. keep everything in check. never give up darlings, for Allah is always there to guide you.

cry hard if you feel like it, don't hold your tears. crying doesn't make you weak. trust me, after you have cried a river, you will feel somehow relieve.
be mad if you are mad, but be mad to no one but yourself. keep the madness to yourself. don't yell at others. don't scream your lungs out. just let them mess and screw you up if they want to, just be strong and stay positive.

i have depleting ideas. and i really need to pack up my bags now!

if you are wondering why me and why this, it is because, i sometimes like to talk some sense into myself, and i feel angel-ish today, so i guess, why not?