unstable emotion.

one thing i realized today ; don't let your temper ruin you. you know temper, anger, are like flame. it burns you inside out. it even char your heart tit bits. when you let anger controls you, it is something like you pour flammable oil onto fire, you know what i mean? i know us humans often get controlled by temper somehow, it is as easy as picking nose to snap at a person somehow, believe me. what i think is that, when you are angry, satans are actually persuading you in a way that you may turn out to do something terrible. i know that yakking is easy and to advice others is easier than to gulp in the advice yourself, but you have nothing to lose if you try. moreover, it is better as controlling anger is what wise people do, and who doesn't dream of becoming one, am i right? what i was gonna say is that when you are mad at something or someone, just be calm and remember that to be patient. i don't know how to put it in a better way to put you in a better light, but i guess i am no good adviser, so i guess i should leave it out to you to figure out what to do and what not to do.

anyhow, i miss home. though i acted out all good and strong this few weeks, still, i am crying inside. i know you gonna dub me 'mengade Aisyah' or whatsoever, but you will never understand the need of a girl, who in the meantime is dealing with problems here and there, who has no other choice than to cave in, who is so homesick that she can't even think of home or any other words in the sorts. i am so gooey that i can be ruthlessly lick by a giant tongue and pass throughthe stalagmite mouth of the dinasaur which finally be vanished from the sight of a normal person, so i guess i better be off because crying is not what my eyes can bear at this moment because my lacrimal sacs are tired, so do my eyes. i seriously need to be off for good.

good night everyone!